tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-66903849176786763062012-02-16T03:10:12.949-08:00ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.comBlogger241100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-88480283230461284032008-10-27T01:14:00.000-07:002008-10-27T01:15:42.913-07:00<div style="text-align: center; font-family: verdana; color: rgb(51, 0, 0);"><span style="font-size:180%;"><br /><br />Wishing<br /><br /><br />that<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm<br /><br /><br /><br />DEAD!!!!!!<br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8848028323046128403?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-22416422556681383032008-10-19T07:22:00.000-07:002008-10-19T07:26:33.477-07:00<div style="text-align: center; font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(51, 51, 153);"><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >dance with my father</span><br /><br />Back when I was a child<br />Before life removed all the innocence<br />My father would lift me high<br />And dance with my mother and me and then<br /><br /><br />Spin me around till I fell asleep<br />Then up the stairs he would carry me<br />And I knew for sure<br />I was loved<br /><br /><br />If I could get another chance<br />Another walk, another dance with him<br />I’d play a song that would never, ever end<br />How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again<br /><br /><br />Ooh, ooh<br /><br /><br />When I and my mother would disagree<br />To get my way I would run from her to him<br />He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah<br />Then finally make me do just what my mama said<br /><br /><br />Later that night when I was asleep<br />He left a dollar under my sheet<br />Never dreamed that he<br />Would be gone from me<br /><br /><br />If I could steal one final glance<br />One final step, one final dance with him<br />I’d play a song that would never, ever end<br />‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father<br />again<br /><br /><br />Sometimes I’d listen outside her door<br />And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him<br />I pray for her even more than me<br />I pray for her even more than me<br /><br /><br />I know I’m prayin’ for much too much<br />But could You send back the only man she loved<br />I know You don’t do it usually<br />But Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again<br />Every night I fall asleep<br />And this is all I ever dream </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-2241642255668138303?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-22671605052339488342008-10-08T02:20:00.000-07:002008-10-08T02:26:06.214-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">help me.....<br /><br />i'm drowning in the darkness....<br /><br />but still loving the darkness....<br /><br />i'm all alone.....<br /><br />but cherishing every second of it...<br /><br />I'm alive...<br /><br />but wishing to be dead...<br /><br />am I normal?<br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-2267160505233948834?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-30630007153921414402008-10-08T02:18:00.000-07:002008-10-08T02:20:17.791-07:00simula kanina yung exam week namin....<br /><br />wahahaha..<br /><br />kakatamad na talagang mag-aral....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-3063000715392141440?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-24732005352560734362008-09-30T04:02:00.000-07:002008-09-30T04:12:21.046-07:00<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" > lgi ako pumapasyal dito sa blog koh...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >minsn ngbbas ako ng blog ng mg ibang blogista.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >sa paglilibot koh sa iba't ibang blog.....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >nainggit ako sa iba na ang husay magsulat...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >yung iba ang galing magpatawa kahit walang kaefort efort....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >hmmmm....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >and daming pumpsok sa utak koh araw-araw na gusto koh isulat dito sa blog koh... pero sa tuwing nkaharap na ako sa monitor at nagsimulang lumikha ng isang bagay na galing sa puso ko.... nawawala lahat ng gusto kong isulat... haist.... minsan nagdadala ako ng papel at ballpen para incase meon pumasok sa magulo kong utak eh maisulat koh... peo sad to say.... until now ala pa rin....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >hmmmm....</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >gusto koh lumikha ng isang kwento tungkol sa mga nangyayari sa buhay koh.... mgsulat ng mga bagay na napapansin koh araw-araw... mglabas ng nasasaloob koh... gustohin koh man...minsan hindi koh magawa.... ewan koh ba...</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >sana sa susunod na pagharap koh sa monitor na to at hawakan ang matitigas na keyboard namin eh makapagsulat na ako ng isang bagay na maipagmamalaki koh....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >ahehehehe....</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 102);font-family:courier new;" >libreng mangarap!!!</span><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-2473200535256073436?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-77693067759108369352008-09-20T20:46:00.000-07:002008-09-23T02:46:22.695-07:00<div style="text-align: center; font-family: lucida grande; color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">three days duty for this week only and two days next week and evaluation on saturday... area??? surgery ward at ITRMC....<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">well, nung pumunta kami first time sa ward nayon eh... lam namin medyo toxic sa dami ng patients... pagdating namin.. naabutan namin yung endorsement... wheeeeew!!!!!! ang bilis nilang magsalita... hnd ama pwedeng magreact na paulit... kaya yung nakuha koh ala pa sa kalahati ng ng patients na 21 lahat..... haist.....<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;">tapos ayun na... binigyan na kami ng mga hahwakan naming pasyente... wahahaha.... 2 yung patients koh... hay... kakatamad pa aman magduty.... tapos kami yung naassign na medicationg nurse... eh kasama kasi ako sa first 3 kapag alphebetical yung name... eh tinatamad nga ako.. kaya sabi nalang namin... yung last 3... whahahaha.... daya talaga....<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">tapos ayun... v/s.... npi..... ivf regulation.... I&amp;O.... mag routinary na kailangan gawin... xempwe... charting.... haizt.... excited akong magduty sa OR whahahaha..... gusto koh makakita ng taong nakalabas yung laman loob... wahahahaha..... tpos.... yung RIE na namin.... nagkamali ako... whahaha.... todo explain ako xempwe na mali yung nalagyan koh ng RIE... hmf!!!! hnd ako magets ng lolakels moh... wahahaha..... wag nlang daw namin pakielaman.... tama ba amang sabihin yun???? whewww!!!! grabe.... CEU pa aman...... haist!!<br /><br /><div style="text-align: right;">second day na duty.... otei aman.... same patients... same routinary activity.... alang pagbabago.... kakatamad pa rin.... xempwe hnd kami yung magmemedicate.... yung 2nd 3... ahehehehe.... kadayaan nga naman.... ahehehee.... lam koh may karma yun... ahehehehe..... so ayun..... lang exiting na nangyari... may admission lang ng 3ng pts.... peo yung CI namin alang paki dun sa mga bagong admit.... nung tinannong lang xa ng clerk on duty eh saka lang nya pinagawa yung admission.... whahahaha..... la wenta.... hmf!!!!! naturingan nakagrad ng CEU!!!! wahahahaha..... asan na kaya yung inaral nya???? hmf!!!! kakaazar.... hnd pa xa ngdidiscuss .... wahahahaha..... ano ba yun!!!!!<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">third day..... kami na sawakas yung medicating nurse.... wahahaha.... medyo magaan yung gawain kasi salitan kami nung volunteer.... wahahahaha..... la lang..... kadayaan na aman.... tapos sfter naming magmedicate ng 10pm eh... may mga medication cards pa pala dun sa medication board.... wahahahaha..... hnd nailagay dun sa medication tray for 10pm... wheewww!!!!! azar talaga.... eh di naprepare ulit kami... toxic na!!!!!!! tapos isipin moh.... malapit na kami umalis eh nagdagsaan naman ang mga pasyete... 5ng sunod-sunod yung admission.... wahahahahaha... eto na ang karma... buti nalang at medicationg nurse ako.... wahahahaha... tapos.... xempwe... ngmemdicate ako... hnd koh na na v/s yung 2ng pasyente koh for 10pm... eh kailangan koh pa aman yung dun sa charting na ginagawa koh.... nakiusap me sa kaduty koh... eh sad to say... toxic nga sa dami ng admission... hnd an rin nya nagwa.... sinabi koh kay mam.... sabi nya eh lagyan koh nalang daw ng konting alterations yung v/s na pasnte koh dun sa mga nakuha koh... tutal eh stable na aman daw... tama ba yun???? grabe... so, ginawa koh yung 8pm na v/s nalng yung nilagay koh.... hnd koh ginawa yung cnabi nya.... wahahahahaha.... tpos nung<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">so ayun.... that concludes our 3day duty on our first week sa surgery ward ITRMC....<br />ahehehehe..... haist.....<br /></div></div></div></div></div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-7769306775910836935?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-82625996871272653032008-09-19T10:41:00.000-07:002008-09-19T10:43:19.319-07:00<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);font-size:180%;" ><br /><br /><br /><br />TINATAMAD<br />NA<br />AKONG<br />MAGDUTY<br />!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8262599687127265303?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-80425655346559975732008-09-09T02:01:00.000-07:002008-09-09T02:09:28.480-07:00<span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >hmmmmmm....................</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">kahapon ng umaga.....<br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: left; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">nawalan ako ng 4,ooo.....<br /></div><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">which ilalaan koh sana sa affiliation koh sa november...<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >la kasi ako pambayad ng saktong 20,000...</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">so kailangan pag-ipunan...<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >but sad to say...</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">may malikot na kamay na kumuha ng pera koh...<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >balde ata ang naiyak koh buong araw na yun....</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">tapos exam pa namin that day...<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >haist...</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">sayang yung pera koh....<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >iipon ulit ako pandagdag ng pang affiliation...</span><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);"><br /></div><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">la konsenxa yung kumuha nun....<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >its bad to curse people....</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">but sometimes....<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >to decrease anxiety......</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">nagagwa koh....<br /></div><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);font-family:courier new;" >hay...</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: right; font-family: courier new; color: rgb(204, 0, 0);">SOWEE poh........<br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8042565534655997573?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-44719740629457074942008-09-06T04:36:00.000-07:002008-09-06T04:39:55.852-07:00<div style="text-align: right; color: rgb(0, 0, 102);">kanina....<br /><br />nagexam kami....<br /><br />comprehensive exam namin.....<br /><br />grabe....<br /><br />ang hirap nya men!!!!!!!!<br /><br />kahit cguro nagbasa ka ng sobra eh babagsak ka pa rin...<br /><br />ahehehee....<br /><br />nagbasa ako ng onti...<br /><br />plus stock knowledge....<br /><br />hmmm.....<br /><br />53 lang ako over 100...<br /><br />san ka fa db??? ahehehe....<br /><br />haist....<br /><br />azar talaga....<br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-4471974062945707494?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-37717499257904224562008-09-06T03:54:00.000-07:002008-09-06T04:35:08.925-07:00<div style="text-align: center; color: rgb(0, 0, 102);"><span style="font-size:100%;">SEPT. 01, 2008 @ 3:00PM MONDAY<br /><br />eto yung aaw na first time naming magdedefend ng case.. xempwe... kabado kaming lahat... hindi pa aman kami familiar sa case namin na NNTG... wahahahaha.. but i think we prepared enough.. 4 yung panel namin.. hnd kasama yung CI namin dun... hehehehe.... at first, la xadong questions... wow.. ayus na to la tanonh sabi namin... and then diniscuss koh na yng NCP... wahahaha... i was then in front... feeling koh binugbog yung NCP at ako... ahehehehe.... if you could see our printed output... pulang-pula xa... ahehehe.... first part yun ng ncp... magaling aman poh yung pinagawa koh ng NCP... xempwe... bestfwend koh yun... ahehehe... first prob namin was pain... priority...<br />whapak!!!! assessment...<br />asan daw yung PQRST of pain??? huh??? isip ak.. and then i recalled... taos sabi pa... kulang daw yung observation namin... and batit daw yung pain scale eh asa objectives which is supposed to be daw eh subjective.... kasi it was verbalized by the patient.... tama aman... but nakasanayan na namin ng objective yun,.... now we know.... ahehehe.... hmmm..... they got a point there... ahehehe.... but big deal pa rin yung PQRST ng pain.... nilagyan pa nga yun ng tono ng reviewer namin sa nursing process eh... ahehehe... ganito yung... What PROVOKES, provokes the pain??? What's the QUALITY, quality of the pain... Does the pain RADIATES, does the pain radaites?? What's the SEVERITY, severity of the pain??? What's the TIME, time of the pain??? Wheeew.., yan yung kulang.. grabe.... ahehehee... well, last case kasi namin eh hnd sinabi samin yung kahit pain dun priority prob namin... ahehehe...<br />next... diagnosis..<br />whaapaks!!!!<br />bakit daw "waning of anesthesia???"<br />hmmm.....<br />eh tama aman ah db??? thats's my opinion...<br />but then... nagbigay ng sitwasyon yung panel namin.....<br />what if daw nag-enject xa ng anesthesia sa sarili nya... tapos nawala yung effect eh d may masakit na sa kanya... sbai namin... wala....<br />so dapat daw hnd waning of anesthesia yun....<br />it should be...<br />ACUTE PAIN R/T INCISION SECONDARY TO SURGICAL PROCEDURE DONE<br />bongga!!!! ahehehehe...<br />next... planning....<br />ayus aman daw yung planning namin.... but we should categorize it dw by LTO and STO.... eh la kami ganun.... ahehehehe..... tapos ask nila when daw matatawag na short term at kelan long term yung goal...<br />isip-isip kami xempwe.... hula d2 hula jan... ahehehehe...<br />hanggang cnabi na rin nila yung sagot...<br />0-6 months... ACUTE PAIN<br />6 months nd so... CHRONIC PAIN...<br />hehehehe.... now we know.... ahehehehe....<br />but... impressed sila s rationale namin kasi well explained daw.. unlike other groups na hnd xadong explain.... ahehehehe...<br />problang din sa intervention namin eh hnd daw namin nacategorize... na...<br />DIAGNOSTIC... THERAPEUTIC... EDUCATIVE...<br />yan daw dapat category.... actually... lam koh na yan... tinuro na ni mam annie....<br />nakalimutan koh lang... wahahahaha.....<br />after nun tapos na... ayus aman din daw yung evaluation namin....<br />kulang nga daw yung planning kaya reflect din dun na kulang... ahehehe... wag daw kami matakot na maglagay ng GOAL UNMET sa evaluation.... kasi daw if hnd talaga namin magawa or talagang mahirap yung case eh ayus lang daw.. saka lack of time para imanage yung patient... ayun.... sa wakas.... natapos din kami....<br />ayus aman daw group namin....<br />THINKING GROUP...<br />yan daw kami.... ahehehehe.... nirank nila kami as 8/10..<br />thankful aman kami sa panel namin... kasi ang dami naming natutunun from them... cguro if kami ulit magcacase pres eh may angat na kami kahit papano... ahehehehe....<br />thanks din ka TJ... my bestfwend.. para sa NCP.... ahehehe.. sowee poh.. nasabon xa masyado... ahehehe...<br /><br />'till here....<br /><br /></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-3771749925790422456?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-27802080267141684872008-09-03T11:21:00.000-07:002008-09-03T11:31:48.642-07:00Happy days are when you can give a healthy chuckle despite the fact that your life is just an inch away from the edge. You start to view things with optimism and hope. That maybe somewhere, somehow everything would be alright! That maybe it might happen if you take charge again with your life.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-2780208026714168487?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-2427595282373959932008-08-24T03:26:00.000-07:002008-09-03T11:34:41.855-07:00My hubby just called after 2 weeks of no communication. Whew! It made may day. Hahahaha. I'm happy now!<br /><br />(,++)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-242759528237395993?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-17879955472955907182008-08-20T03:37:00.000-07:002008-09-03T09:55:09.611-07:00May nakalimutan pala akong ikwento. ahehehehe.<br /><br />Last august 14, 2008, may nanay na mangangak. Nung time ng duty namin eh fully dilated na xa. Good for us!!!! LOL We have a case.<br /><br />I chose to be in the cord care. It was a great feeling. After we bathe the baby. Tied her (gurl xa kasi) umbilical cord. Dried her and put an opthalmic ointment. Injected her with Vitamin K. Then I carried her to the weighing scale.<br /><br />Wow! Sarap ng pakiramdam at that time. That was my first time sa duty na kumarga ng baby. I felt like it was my one. Hahahaha. Feeling koh lang. If I felt that was nun, what more kaya with my own baby? Hmmmm...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-1787995547295590718?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-49505690680656971262008-08-20T03:33:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:00:53.032-07:00Bumabagyo.<br /><br />Nakakatamad tuloy. Namiss koh pa yung duty koh for day kasi alang pasok. Excited pa aman ako kasi first time koh magduduty sa hospital na yun. Haizt!<br /><br />Sana bukas tumigil na tong ulan na 'to para makapagduty na ako. I love having a duty sa hospital. There's so much to learn and see. Daming patient na kailangan na tulong na hndi na naasikaso ng mga nurse on duty. Kaya kami nalang ang gagawa. Fulfilling sa pakiramdam kasi alam mo in your own little way eh nakatulong ka db? nakakagaan ng loob. haizt. What a feeling!<br /><br />Sana talaga makapagduty na ako tomorrow.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-4950569068065697126?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-75451007835659711922008-08-11T01:01:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:03:16.825-07:00It feels like I'm too old to study at this point. Parang mas gusto ko na magwork. Hayst. Gumagawa kami nayong ng case study. Dejavu! Yan raramdaman koh. Hahaha. Hope I can get through this.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-7545100783565971192?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-82837091031109418632008-08-07T10:59:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:10:55.026-07:00Haaay!<br /><br />Kakatapos ng duty koh kaninang 11pm. Nakauwi ako sa bahay ng past 12mn. Tapos nagcomputer. Nagresearch. Naghanap ng journal na ipapasa sa sat. Ginawa ko na kasi bukas duty ulit ako ng 3-11pm. Kaso hndi ko pa nagawa yung reaction. So, bukas ulit. Ahehehe.<br /><br />Pagtapos nito, maglalaba ako ng uniform. Haaay. Minsan naiisip ko, nakakapagod na yung ganitong buhay. Gusto ko nang magwork. Kakatamad nang mag-aral. Enjoy lang kasi anjan mga fwends moh to support you. But when the day ends and you are all alone, narerealize mo lahat.<br /><br />Minsan dumating sakin yung pagod na pagod na ako sa life koh. Yun bang gusto ko nalang na matulog buong araw at wag na lumabas ng kwarto. Magmunimuni ng mga nanyari sa buhay ko. Pero, naisip koh... 'How about my future?' It made me think. Kailangan ko makatapos. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kahit hndi para sa pamilya ko kundi para sa sarili ko at kinabukasan ko!<br /><br />Haaay.<br /><br />Minsan din naiisip koh, pano kung hndi ako makapasa? Pano if may subject akong bagsak? Pano na? Hndi ko alam.<br /><br />Haaay.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8283709103110941863?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-8817470672881552382008-08-05T05:25:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:13:04.781-07:00<span style="font-style: italic;">"Bleeding Love"</span><br /><br />Closed off from love<br />I didn't need the pain<br />Once or twice was enough<br />And it was all in vain<br />Time starts to pass<br />Before you know it you're frozen<br />But something happened<br />For the very first time with you<br />My heart melts into the ground<br />Found something true<br />And everyone's looking round<br />Thinking I'm going crazy<br />But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br />I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love<br /><br />You cut me open<br />Trying hard not to hear<br />But they talk so loud<br />Their piercing sounds fill my ears<br />Try to fill me with doubt<br />Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling<br />But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace<br />And in this world of loneliness I see your face<br />Yet everyone around me<br />Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe<br />But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding<br />I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<br /><br />You cut me open<br />And it's draining all of me<br />Oh they find it hard to believe I'll be wearing these scars<br />For everyone to see I don't care what they say I'm in love with you<br />They try to pull me away<br />But they don't know the truth<br />My heart's crippled by the vein<br />That I keep on closing<br />You cut me open and I Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love<br /><br />You cut me open and I Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love<br />Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love<br />You cut me open and I Keep bleeding<br />Keep, keep bleeding love<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-881747067288155238?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-84974833637163191882008-08-05T05:17:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:13:48.051-07:00I miss you so much baby koh!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8497483363716319188?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-80262900925901799662008-07-28T22:01:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:24:15.467-07:00We first met @ Union Christian College last December 30, 2007.<br /><br />Yung mga panahon na yun ay training namin ng BLS sa Red Cross. Actually, hindi xa yung instructor namin. Nung Return Demonstration na, sa kanya kami ngdemo ng carrying at bandage. Nung araw na yun makukulit kaming apat. Si Dia, Jasmine, Lalaine at xempwe ako. Kinukulit din namin xa.<br /><br />Then, after ng return demo, punta na kami for the return demo ng CPR. I sat @ a place where there was a dummy. I was assigned first to do the CPR of an infant. So, kinakatikot koh yung dummy. Lumapit xa sakin. Pinagreturn demo nya ako sa kanya. Practice lang daw. So, nagpractice ako. After a while dumating na yung instructor kung sa ako magdedemo. After koh dun magdemo, lumapit xa ulit sakin. Nanghiram xa ng ballpen kahit halatang may ballpen aman xa. Nagpapacute ata. (kapal koh talaga... ahehehehe) Ayun, sabi nya hanapin koh daw xa pag kailangan koh na yung ballpen. Sad to say, hindi koh kailangan yung ballpen. Kaya xa yung lumapit ulit. Wahahahaha. Then, hindi kami nakapag usap after that. Busy na kasi sa mga demo. Kinacareer kasi. Ahehehehe.<br /><br />Tapos, pauwi na kami. Hindi koh xa makita kaya hnd na kami nakapag paalam sa kanya. Pagbaba namin galing ng covered court, we saw him sa chapter ng red cross. Tapos kinuha ni Dia yung number nya. Tapos globe xa. Sabi koh, "Uy, globe xa" Ask nya me, "Globe ka rin?"<br />sabi koh, "opo" Then, kinuha nya yung number koh. Agad nagmisscall. Tapos umuwi na ako. Pauwi kasi ako ng bulacan ng time na yun. Habang nasa bus ako pauwi, after ng lahat ng demo sa covered court, nagtxt xa ng quote. Xempwe, forward din ako ng quote. Then, it started.<br /><br />Naging kami nang January 09, 2008!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8026290092590179966?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-89883859620426447902008-07-28T21:54:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:26:03.215-07:00Sabi koh the other day may tampuhan kami ng dad koh. Well, after ng post koh eh ngtxt ako sa kanya, we talked about what happened. Madami ding nabuksang mga topic. We talked but I think may onting tampo pa rin xa. But I'm not really sure. I just hope na maging ayus na kami for good. Ahehehehe.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8988385962042644790?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-78889541412131804322008-07-27T03:07:00.001-07:002008-09-03T10:28:12.611-07:00When I was a child<br />I thought the world<br />Was nothing but<br />A big playground<br /><br />Everything was for free<br />I can get anything I want<br />And I can play anything<br />Anywhere and in any place<br /><br /><br />I’m free and happy<br />I’m alive and existing<br />A can do anything<br />And I can be anyone<br /><br />But then I grew up<br />My ideas has changed<br />The world isn’t a playground<br />But was now my home<br /><br />A home where I can laugh<br />Where I can cry<br />Where I can love and<br />A home where I can dream<br /><br />Granted with independence<br />Subjected to all rules<br />To learn was a choice<br />And knowledge was a gain<br /><br />Playing was lessen<br />For studying was in the scene<br />I should keep my grades up<br />For me to be on top<br /><br />But now I’m old and<br />Soon I will leave my home<br />That has been my life<br />Where I spend my youth<br /><br />Leaving my home is hard<br />For it carries all the memories<br />The memories of my youth<br />That we share together<br /><br />The world which is my home<br />May have been cruel<br />But helped me to gain strength<br />And be who I am today<br /><br />Goodbye to you may home<br />You’ll soon be someone else’s home<br />New memories you will see<br />But ours will be kept forever<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-7888954141213180432?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-78340597509549278492008-07-27T03:04:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:30:14.096-07:00I was waiting in the dark<br />Waiting for someone<br />Waiting to be seen<br />And waiting for the light<br /><br />I’ve been there so long<br />Fear was creeping within me<br />I wanted to scream<br />But I now no one will hear it<br /><br />Still I wait and wait<br />Until I fell asleep<br />Ignoring the darkness therein<br />For I have lost my strength<br /><br />After a long time of sleeping<br />I felt the wind touching me<br />It was like somebody’s voice<br />Whispering in my ears<br /><br />I got up quickly<br />For I thought there’s someone<br />Who will rescue me<br />From the darkness I’m in<br /><br />But to my shock<br />Nobody was there<br />I’m still alone in the dark<br />Still trying to survive<br /><br />Tear begin to fell<br />My cheeks was wet<br />I can’t stop crying<br />And I can’t stop wishing<br /><br />I prayed and prayed<br />Still no one appeared<br />My hope vanished<br />And I run out of courage<br /><br />I let myself lie still on the floor<br />My body was numb and weak<br />I felt like any moment<br />Death will come and see me<br /><br />I manage to be calm<br />And wait for my death<br />For death will be my savior<br />From this darkness I’m at<br /><br />I was grasping with air<br />Can’t hardly breathe<br />My heart pumps so hard<br />And my body starts to shiver<br /><br />I then close my eyes<br />Prepare for my death<br />For it can save me<br />From this darkness<br /><br />I lie still on the floor<br />Until the time it felt light<br />It was like I’m flying<br />Flying in the midst of darkness<br /><br />I submitted myself to it<br />Thinking I could escape<br />For this is my only chance<br />My chance for survival<br /><br />At last the sun touched my face<br />It was but warm and bright<br />I ignored it and waited<br />And a man appeared before me<br /><br />He was the one<br />That made me fly<br />Caused me to break free<br />From the darkness I’m once where<br /><br />I fell asleep in his arms<br />For it felt warm and I feel safe<br />I let my body rest in his arms<br />Until he carried me away<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-7834059750954927849?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-84689245228654817812008-07-27T02:44:00.000-07:002008-09-03T10:36:49.234-07:00Four days na kaming <span style="font-style: italic;">not in speaking terms</span> ni daddy.<br /><br />It started last Wednesday night. He asked me when we could have the chance to talk about some important things thats he's meaning to ask. I told him Wednesday until 1:30am. But sad to say inantok ako ng mga before 12mn. Sabi nya pilitin kong magising kasi hnd pa kami tapos mag-usap. Sabi ko hindi ko na talaga kaya and then I fell asleep. Kasi I'll be having my duty the next morning, mga 7am, so I need to get up at around 4am para makasakay ako agad ng bus to school at 5am. So ayun nga, the day ng duty koh, ngtxt ako ng "morning dad" You know what he said?<br /><br />"Bahala ka na sa buhay mo. Hindi mo na ako kailangan."<br /><br />Wow, bigat! I said i'm very sorry. But he just can't accept my sorry. Why? Sabi nya kasi nagbitaw ako ng salita and dapat koh yun tuparin. Yeah I know, but hindi ko na talaga kaya eh. Huhuhu. And I'm very much sorry.<br /><br />Hope na magkaayos na kami ng dad ko. But I can't make the first move.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-8468924522865481781?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6690384917678676306.post-70274560598686017602008-07-27T02:38:00.001-07:002008-09-03T10:39:32.701-07:00Hello! Actually hindi ko alam sasabihin e. Ahehehe. Naenganyo lang ako gumawa ng blog dahil sa friend ko na si <a href="http://timmyjosephtamayosa.blogspot.com">Timmy</a>. Ahehehehe. Sana e magamit ko to. Ahehehehe. Sige till next time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6690384917678676306-7027456059868601760?l=ilynn.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>ilynnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18113643862533179102noreply@blogger.com0