Just now

My hubby just called after 2 weeks of no communication. Whew! It made may day. Hahahaha. I'm happy now!

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Sarap ng pakiramdam

May nakalimutan pala akong ikwento. ahehehehe.

Last august 14, 2008, may nanay na mangangak. Nung time ng duty namin eh fully dilated na xa. Good for us!!!! LOL We have a case.

I chose to be in the cord care. It was a great feeling. After we bathe the baby. Tied her (gurl xa kasi) umbilical cord. Dried her and put an opthalmic ointment. Injected her with Vitamin K. Then I carried her to the weighing scale.

Wow! Sarap ng pakiramdam at that time. That was my first time sa duty na kumarga ng baby. I felt like it was my one. Hahahaha. Feeling koh lang. If I felt that was nun, what more kaya with my own baby? Hmmmm...

Here I am again

Bumabagyo.

Nakakatamad tuloy. Namiss koh pa yung duty koh for day kasi alang pasok. Excited pa aman ako kasi first time koh magduduty sa hospital na yun. Haizt!

Sana bukas tumigil na tong ulan na 'to para makapagduty na ako. I love having a duty sa hospital. There's so much to learn and see. Daming patient na kailangan na tulong na hndi na naasikaso ng mga nurse on duty. Kaya kami nalang ang gagawa. Fulfilling sa pakiramdam kasi alam mo in your own little way eh nakatulong ka db? nakakagaan ng loob. haizt. What a feeling!

Sana talaga makapagduty na ako tomorrow.

Hay naku!

It feels like I'm too old to study at this point. Parang mas gusto ko na magwork. Hayst. Gumagawa kami nayong ng case study. Dejavu! Yan raramdaman koh. Hahaha. Hope I can get through this.

Paghihinga

Haaay!

Kakatapos ng duty koh kaninang 11pm. Nakauwi ako sa bahay ng past 12mn. Tapos nagcomputer. Nagresearch. Naghanap ng journal na ipapasa sa sat. Ginawa ko na kasi bukas duty ulit ako ng 3-11pm. Kaso hndi ko pa nagawa yung reaction. So, bukas ulit. Ahehehe.

Pagtapos nito, maglalaba ako ng uniform. Haaay. Minsan naiisip ko, nakakapagod na yung ganitong buhay. Gusto ko nang magwork. Kakatamad nang mag-aral. Enjoy lang kasi anjan mga fwends moh to support you. But when the day ends and you are all alone, narerealize mo lahat.

Minsan dumating sakin yung pagod na pagod na ako sa life koh. Yun bang gusto ko nalang na matulog buong araw at wag na lumabas ng kwarto. Magmunimuni ng mga nanyari sa buhay ko. Pero, naisip koh... 'How about my future?' It made me think. Kailangan ko makatapos. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, kahit hndi para sa pamilya ko kundi para sa sarili ko at kinabukasan ko!

Haaay.

Minsan din naiisip koh, pano kung hndi ako makapasa? Pano if may subject akong bagsak? Pano na? Hndi ko alam.

Haaay.

Keep Bleeding Love

"Bleeding Love"

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see I don't care what they say I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

I wish you were here

I miss you so much baby koh!